Today my 5 Minute Journal quote at the top was this:
And I can’t help but think how much this really resonated with me this morning, and how much I needed to hear it as a reminder. So often when I get the chance at a day off, I constantly feel rushed and spent because it’s filled with things I “think” I should be doing like cleaning, working out, organizing, decluttering, shopping, running errands, and cooking. I feel like I should be constantly going-going-going.
And let’s not even talk about when I have things on my schedule like this last weekend; Friday night I worked 5p-3a. I slept until 11 am on Saturday and then we had bingo at the fire hall starting at 5pm. I can’t tell you how stressed/anxious/upset I was Thursday, Friday, and Saturday dreading the thought of having literally 5 hours to myself for “free time” to get all of this stuff done.
But thank God for my husband who is my saving grace. He doesn’t care if the bathroom hasn’t been cleaned in two weeks or if the kitchen is a hot mess. He made me coffee Saturday morning while I made breakfast (which is just our trade off…I’m better at breakfast than he is, especially when flipping eggs) and then for 2 hours we hung out on the couch and watched Fixer Upper. It’s out weekend jam and honestly, it’s quite amazing what those two hours can do for a girl’s soul.
I guess my point to all of this is that some things don’t matter. A clean house, a homemade meal, having all the laundry done, having everything neat an organized, having zero clutter – these things don’t matter in the grand scheme of life. Our minds are filled with how things should look via Pinterest, Facebook and Instagram and yet none of that matters. My life is not going to be any better or happier because my bathroom is spotless and clean every 3 days.
So today, on the first day of my vacation, I’m doing exactly what the quote in my journal is telling me to do; spend my free time the way I want to. I may still want to clean and organize a bit because it’s relaxing to me or I may want to sit on the couch and read a book all day. But all I can say is that I’m dropping the guilt of not having a perfectly clean and organized house, or a fresh cooked meal, and I’m enjoying my time the way I want to!