The Glorification of Busy

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Life for me over the past few months has felt so busy, and I’ve gotten to the point where I’m tired of rushing around and staying constantly preoccupied. Working in the ER definitely doesn’t help with this atmosphere and this mindset, but I’m working to take a step back when I’m at work and focus on one task at a time and doing that task slowly and perfectly. Sometimes that’s easier said than done with the nature of the ER, but when I really sit back and reflect on it, there’s no reason to rush or to feel overwhelmed throughout the day.

A few weeks ago we took a trip to see our very good friends, Kevin and Mandy out to Lake Tahoe, California. Kevin and Mandy live full time in a 5th wheel and you can read about their adventures here.  We started to wonder if there was more to life than the rat race, working yourself to exhaustion, and trying to fit in all of our extra activities while still keeping our relationship on the right track. Our trip was so relaxing and laid back that Mike and I started to consider if we could do the RV/camping lifestyle ourselves. It turns out…we can!

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We started looking for pop up campers or tent trailers to buy for ourselves so that we can spend more time in nature relaxing and exploring and less time sitting on our couch watching TV or scrolling. We were looking for about 3 weeks before we found one on Craigslist that we just couldn’t pass up.

At this point we also found out that we likely wouldn’t be able to go on our 6 month planned trip to Hawaii for some personal issues and ended up having to cancel it. While we were really bummed that we couldn’t go to Hawaii, we were excited to start on this new adventure of camping and getting outdoors more often than a 10 day trip to Hawaii.

So we went to look at the pop up and found it to be in really great condition for it’s age and price. We decided right there on the spot that it was a good fit for us and two days later we bought it!

We took her out on her first trip this past week to Ohiopyle and even though it rained way more than we would have liked, we had a really great time slowing down and enjoying our time as a little family.

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Our next camping trip is planned for a few weeks from now and I’m already looking forward to it! We’ve already started looking at ways to “remodel” the inside of the pop up by painting it and laying some new flooring down as well as re-doing the cushions throughout. There’s so many interesting posts about this and remodels on Pinterest that I’ve gotten a bunch of ideas for what I want the inside to look like. It’s going to be a great little project for my husband and I.

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Now aside from the pop up, I”m starting to really look at how my day to day feels and looks so that I’m not constantly rushing from one place to another. One thing that helps to put things into perspective is the way Kevin and Mandy live. They are never rushed, or at least it seems that way. They are intentional with their time, their efforts, and pretty much in everything they do.

A lot of this revolved around simply slowing down, giving myself enough time to get ready without rushing, and enough time to get to where I need to be without stressing about being late. I know this is a pretty straight forward concept, but sometimes I feel like we get lost in the day to day hustle and forget the whole point of life.

At this point, being busy is not a badge of success. It is not something I am striving for. I am working towards being mindful, slowing down, living with intention, and being a better friend. All of these things seem to have slipped out of my hands recently, and it’s time to get back to more balance.

Reading more, scrolling less. Letting go of the things I “should” be doing and letting life evolve naturally. Doing what I want to be doing rather than those things I am “expected to do”. I believe now, more than ever, it’s time to take a step back and just slow down.

Do What You Want

Today my 5 Minute Journal quote at the top was this:
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And I can’t help but think how much this really resonated with me this morning, and how much I needed to hear it as a reminder. So often when I get the chance at a day off, I constantly feel rushed and spent because it’s filled with things I “think” I should be doing like cleaning, working out, organizing, decluttering, shopping, running errands, and cooking. I feel like I should be constantly going-going-going.

And let’s not even talk about when I have things on my schedule like this last weekend; Friday night I worked 5p-3a. I slept until 11 am on Saturday and then we had bingo at the fire hall starting at 5pm. I can’t tell you how stressed/anxious/upset I was Thursday, Friday, and Saturday dreading the thought of having literally 5 hours to myself for “free time” to get all of this stuff done.

But thank God for my husband who is my saving grace. He doesn’t care if the bathroom hasn’t been cleaned in two weeks or if the kitchen is a hot mess. He made me coffee Saturday morning while I made breakfast (which is just our trade off…I’m better at breakfast than he is, especially when flipping eggs) and then for 2 hours we hung out on the couch and watched Fixer Upper. It’s out weekend jam and honestly, it’s quite amazing what those two hours can do for a girl’s soul.

I guess my point to all of this is that some things don’t matter. A clean house, a homemade meal, having all the laundry done, having everything neat an organized, having zero clutter – these things don’t matter in the grand scheme of life. Our minds are filled with how things should look via Pinterest, Facebook and Instagram and yet none of that matters. My life is not going to be any better or happier because my bathroom is spotless and clean every 3 days.

So today, on the first day of my vacation, I’m doing exactly what the quote in my journal is telling me to do; spend my free time the way I want to. I may still want to clean and organize a bit because it’s relaxing to me or I may want to sit on the couch and read a book all day. But all I can say is that I’m dropping the guilt of not having a perfectly clean and organized house, or a fresh cooked meal, and I’m enjoying my time the way I want to!